What does it mean to be a member of a communist party? Should one ‘believe’ in Marxism in order to be so? But what if one does not ‘believe’?
Over lunch in Beijing, I spoke with a reflective younger member of the party. He knew full well what he was doing, why he was the local (student) branch secretary, and what it meant to be a member of the largest communist party in the world today.
‘What was the process of joining the party like? I asked.
‘It’s a long process’, he said.
‘So it’s not just signing a form and paying a membership fee?’ I said.
‘Ha ha, it needs a bit more than that’, he said. ‘You might be invited to join if you have shown leadership or performed well in school or shown some other potential. And you have to do some study and training beforehand. It can be a bit of a long process’.
‘Tests?’ I said.
‘Yes’, he said. ‘But the most interesting experience is when you speak with an old cadre’.
‘Really?’ I said.
‘Yes, I had to have a number of discussions with an old man who has been a member for decades’, he said. ‘After that, he had to fill out a report on our discussion’.
‘Did you have to give all the correct answers?’ I said. ‘So he could tick the boxes?’
‘Oh no’, he said. ‘He spent most of the time telling about his misgivings about the party, where it is falling short, about how he is sometimes embarrassed by it’.
‘What did you say?’ I asked.
‘I listened and nodded’, he said. “I was not quite sure why he was doing it’.
‘Unburdening? I suggested. ‘Testing you?’
‘Perhaps’, he said. ‘But I wonder whether it wasn’t more than that’.
‘Go on …’, I said.
‘I think he was trying show me what being a party member means’, he said.
‘To prepare you for disappointment?’ I said.
‘Not really’, he said. ‘Let me put it this way: the only real way to be a party member, a dangyuan, is to have misgivings about it, to be critical of it’.
‘Criticism and self-criticism!’ I said.
He laughed: ‘yes, a good socialism tradition. And we Chinese are very good at criticism and self-criticism!’
‘So it’s not a matter of belief’, I said.
‘I don’t like the word “belief”’, he said. ‘It has too much of a religious feel about it. In fact, the whole idea of “believing” in Marxism, or “believing” in a cause is – it seems to me – deeply influenced by Western patterns of thought’.
‘You mean Christian ideas of commitment?’ I said.
‘Yes’, he said. ‘Don’t get me wrong; there is an emotional part to joining the party. It has to touch your passions. But Marxism is not a creed in which you believe. Or, as we like to say: I am a believer without belief’.
‘So he was trying to show you that the best way, or indeed the only way to become a member was to be a critical one, with your own hesitations – a believer without belief’, I said.
‘I think so’, he said. ‘It actually helped me. I could be comfortable about joining the party’.
‘What about now?’ I said.
‘Well, I am the branch secretary here at the university’, he said.
‘So you are clearly more involved!’ I said. ‘Do you approach that task in the same way?’
‘Of course’, he said.
‘Would there be any situation in which you leave the party? Or let me put it positively: what keeps you in the party?’
‘It’s got nothing to do with a better job, promotion, or anything like that’, he said. ‘In my assessment, the communist party offers the best, if not only way forward for China. It may not be perfect, and nearly all members admit that. But I cannot see any other path that would not lead to major disruption and chaos’.
‘You said that at the end of your discussions with the old member, he had to fill out a report’, I said.
‘Yes’, he said.
‘I am intrigued’, I said. ‘What did he write down?’
‘Oh, he said that he needed to put down the correct answers, reflecting the accepted narrative’.
‘Two narratives’, I said. ‘Two levels: the official one and the critical one’.
‘Yes indeed’, he said. ‘The only way to be a member: a believer without belief’.